Hmmm...

So I've begun to wonder why I really have this blog, tbh. I mean, it's not like I've told anyone I have one [kinda forgot about that part] and so no one even reads this or comments it, lol. But, I've thought about it and decided that it's probably a good thing to have anyway, even if people don't read it. It's a good way to rant I would say. Speaking of rants...


Things just...haven't been going the best lately, to be honest. I mean, I guess in general with my life I don't have much to complain about. I have someone who loves me forever, I am living somewhere rent free, I don't have to have a job [not that I could even get one right now], I get money [most of the time] when I need it, and I'm about to start beauty school in a couple weeks. But I guess it's smaller aspects of my personal life I'm getting annoyed and stressed about. For one, sure, I'm glad about beauty school, but I'm super nervous and stressed out about it. It seems like it should be so easy to do, but I still feel like...I don't know, like I'm gonna fail anyway. It's not like I need beauty school to be a make-up artists, but employers would really like the fact that I have a diploma for make-up artistry. Also, my social life is crap lately. I talk to people online and stuff and I love that, but I never SEE anyone anymore. All my good friends I used to see and talk to nearly everyday, I don't anymore, and it definitely isn't my fault. I have all the time in the world, right now, and these people know that. But it's like my friends have no time for me or whatever. I mean, it's whatever, I still have those that I do hang out with, but even when I do hang out with some friends, it always seems like something's wrong. Like I hung out with my friend Krystal today, whom I love very very much, and she just moved back to MD from CA, and I'm VERY happy about that. But, what I'm not happy about is she's been home a couple weeks, and I've only seen her twice. At first, things kept coming up for her and she couldn't hang out. When we finally DID get to hang out, it was for her birthday, and like, it wasn't just me and her or anything, we were with other people, which was understandable, I can't have her all for me on her birthday, duh. But I just saw her today. We were supposed to hang out for dinner, and so I called my dad asking him if he could reload my debit card with money [he offers me this money, I do not demand it from him or feel entitled to it, so don't think I'm just a spoiled ungrateful brat, I'm not, I am VERY grateful]. My dad said he would and he'd have it on there by dinner time tonight. But then I find out she told me something came up and wanted to hang out for lunch, which was fine, because I wanted to see her sooner anyway. I was super super excited to be able to hang out just me and her [and Dustin too, but I don't mind him being there because he doesn't interrupt our time and interject all the time]. But I was upset because my dad hadn't reloaded my card yet, so I wasn't gonna be able to get anything food wise. But we go anyway, because Krystal offered to pay for lunch. But once we arrive, she mentions another friend, Chasity will be joining us. Which I love Chasity, she's my friend, we get along, she's funny. But...I haven't got to hang out with Krystal without other people at ALL in a very very very long time. And Krystal was already planning to go out to Bourbon with Chasity tonight as is. So I was just a little upset we were hanging out alone because Chasity happened to be coming to the mall to run errands. But they invited me out with them to Bourbon tonight, which I was kinda excited about because I haven't been to a club yet and I'm almost 20. So I told them I'd love to go if I get money. They then mentioned we can get in free tonight if we dress up in mardi gras garb, like beads and a mask. So I was like alright cool, and they mentioned how they were going out to buy masks and beads today and invited me to go along with them for that. They knew I had no money, so I thought that meant they were gonna get like a bunch of masks and cheap beads and that I could wear some. But, I mean, I was barely talked to at all while we were at the party store [and honestly that's how it was the whole time all 4 of us were together, I was kinda just behind with Dustin while they walked ahead and talked]. And they bought a bunch of masks, yes, but they were these ones that said "tease" and "sexy" and "bad" and stuff like that, and I DO NOT belong wearing ANYTHING like that at all. And they only bought a couple of beads for themselves. So yeah. Not that I have money anyway, I haven't been able to get a hold of my dad AT ALL, the phone does a half ring and goes to voicemail. So I'm fucked with that, I have no stuff to wear and no money so that equals not going out tonight. I love those two and wanna hang out with them tonight, but I also feel bad for Dustin, he's not a club person, def. But I wouldn't not want him to go, because I have a feeling I could EASILY become the third wheel, kinda like today [even though we had 4 people], especially because of the fact of my high blood pressure, I'm going to need to take frequent breaks and sit down, and of course I'm gonna have to do that alone, they aren't gonna wanna sit. So I'd wanna have dustin there to be with me. -Sigh- Anyway, end rant. I'm just pissed off today basically, but it's probably somehow caused by me, I don't know. I love my friends, and my family, but...I don't know, everything's just going wrong.

Midnight Launch...

So, tonight, I HOPEFULLY [I cannot stress the word "hopefully" enough] will be going to the Bioshock 2 midnight launch! My fiance, Dustin, and I just found out recently Bioshock 2 does plan to offer a midnight launch. Unfortunately, we asked a friend that works at our nearest Gamestop, which is in a mall, if they were participating in the midnight launch, and he said they were not. He told us that if they wished to participate in the midnight launch, they would have to pay money [I assume this is because they need to keep the mall doors open MUCH later that the usual 9pm closing time, and so they need to pay security guards probably to stay late]. SO, Dustin and I decided to go and check out the next nearest STAND ALONE Gamestop. We seem to have found one, just 19 minutes away [not THAT much farther than our mall is from us] in Hampstead. But, we seem to have a little teensy bit of a pickle here. See, Bioshock 2 offers 2 DLC [downloadable content] characters if you reserve the game ahead of time, as most know. So, of course, wanting the DLC, Dustin went to our local Gamestop [wanting to reserve the Ltd. Ed. of the game, but apparently it was too late for that] and he reserved the game for himself, not even thinking about the midnight launch. So, our little problem is, we don't know if we're allowed to pick up the game at any Gamestop we so choose, or if we MUST pick it up at the one where we reserved it. I mean, he has a receipt, so it's not like he has no proof he reserved it, and I can imagine all Gamestops have one computer system, so they could tell that way too. But, I just don't know if they will allow it. We asked the same friend we talked to earlier about the midnight launch, but, it's rather early, so we aren't expecting a response from him anytime soon. We can always just call one of the two Gamestops and ask [that's also provided the Hampstead location is doing it] if they're doing the midnight launch, but again, it's only 8:30AM and we cannot call either location until 10AM. I really hope we can though, I mean, I know that there's nothing we can do about it if we can't pick the game up at a different location, but, ugh, if only we thought to ask about the midnight launch ahead of time, we could have just saved ourselves the trouble and reserved it at the Hampstead location to begin with if they're doing the launch! As you can tell, yes, we are VERY excited about this game. I may not be a 1st person shooter champ, but, I absolutely love Bioshock, and now, there's multiplayer, so my fiance and I may play together, and being able to do so at midnight would be awesome, instead of having to wait until 10AM tomorrow!


UPDATE: So, Dustin just called the Gamestop in Hampstead where we wanted to go to the midnight launch. They informed him that they ARE doing the midnight launch. But, unfortunately, Dustin MUST pick up his copy that he reserved from the Gamestop where he first reserved it. I had a bad feeling about that, ugh. -Sigh- so, we're not going to the midnight launch. I mean, I guess we could go just for funzies, but what's the sense in that? Blllaaahhh, screw you Town Mall of Westminster and the Gamestop contained therein, now I'm all sad. But, at least Dustin and I can try to wake up bright and early tomorrow [if we get to bed early enough] and get to Gamestop at 10AM and get the game :] heh.

Excitement ensues...

So today, for the most part, has been a pretty boring day. I slept a TON. I had gone to bed, pretty early last night, at like...11:30pmish. For people that don't know me well, that's WAY early for me! But, I woke up around...8amish and decided to stay awake, that way, I could keep this lovely sleeping schedule. See, I've been struggling a BUNCH with my sleeping schedule, going to bed way too late, thus sleeping in extremely late. But, around...I dunno, probably lunch time or something along those general lines, I decided I was super tired, and took a nap. This was nooooo ordinary nap! It lasted until nearly 7pm! I do always say that if we sleep for a very long time, then obviously, our bodies need it and that's why we sometimes sleep WAY too much, but geeze, this was insane, haha, but whatever. I normally would be slightly bothered by it, but, I'm feeling pretty tired right now, so I think I can still get to bed before the sun comes up, lol. But that's basically all I've done today, I did just finish watching Milk though, a very good movie. If you haven't seen it, definitely see it, especially if you support gay rights. And right now, I'm about to start doing some laundry [well, okay, my fiance, Dustin, is going to do the laundry, but I'm gonna separate it and put it in bags for him, lol] and then help Dustin clean this extremely messy room of ours. But, there was one golden bit of my day that I am very excited about. A few hours ago, my fiance's step-dad came and talked to us. He started talking to us about Mayhem Festival [Korn, Rob Zombie, Five Finger Death Punch, Lamb of God, Atreyu, Norma Jean, In This Moment, 3 Inches of Blood, Hatebreed, Chimaira, Shadows Fall, and Winds of Plague]. He told us how he's really excited and wants to go, and then, asked us if we wanted to go! He's paying for our tickets and getting them ASAP. It's on August 8th, so it's still pretty far off. But I'm really excited. I don't really like all of the bands, but then again, I haven't listened to all of them. But I definitely like In This Moment, Korn, and Rob Zombie, kinda Atreyu. But yeah, so that was the exciting bit of my day, and I'm pretty happy about it. It's snowing right now...it has been for like...ever now. Normally that would have me excited, but, the fact that I'm not in the public school system right now, and wont be til March [okay, wont be on the public school system technically, but Von Lee follows Baltimore County public school so -thumbs up-] kinda makes it so that I really hate the snow atm. The weather people say we could have a total of 6 inches by the end of it, ugh, how sucky. So I'm probably stuck in the house all day Wednesday and Thursday. We'll see by Friday, but probably stuck then too. Hopefully wont be stuck all weekend, cause I was talking to Krystal [my BFF who just moved back to MD from CA] last weekend about her possibly spending the night here with us one day this weekend! Bahhh so we'll see. But anyway, I'm gona get started on this stupid cleaning and whatnot, urggghhh.