On a personal note...

I may have posted something already today, but that was just an intro, and the other stuff was just all reviews. So now, I would just like to post something on a personal ranting note. So, as I mentioned in my very first post, I am starting beauty school at a school called Von Lee starting in March. I am supposed to graduate in April. I will be taking just a make-up class there, as I want to be a make-up artist, and I am PUMPED for it, let me tell you. But I have others around me that are NOT so pumped! See, let me rewind a bit for you. All throughout high school, I had wanted to be a psychologist. By my later high school years, I decided I wanted to be an adolescent psychologist. So, of course, this is where I set my focus when I started college in the fall of 2008 when I graduated high school. But see, college, I soon came to find out, was not something I was ready for, nor was I sure I ever would be. No, the learning isn't really any different from high school. But everything was just a lot more stressful. The content was fine, but your quality of work was expected to be much higher, and I continued to adapt to that, with each class I took. But see, me being who I am, I hated being in a place, a big place, all by myself, with no friends at all. See, that's the opposite of what high school was for me. But, luckily, through the beginning of my college classes, I had my fiance with me! But, unfortunately, he was majoring in something completely different, and I knew we'd have to part ways eventually and take our respective classes, once we did gen. ed. classes. This made me very nervous, because there were some academic classes [like math and science] I'd have to do on my own, because, see, we were on different levels, I scored a bit lower on my placement exam. This made me more nervous. I've had many a panic attack just related to college stuff. So, I recently, like just last month, decided my mental health was not worth risking JUST to become a psychologist, because I mean, that was only community college, think of how much stress I'd be during my next 4 years at a private college! So I decided to look into something I had always thought about, make-up artistry. So, I went online, searched and found a school about 30-40 minutes away from where I live, and that's not too bad at all. I settled on this place the more I read. I got so nervous though, because I knew I would still have to tell my mother, the one who would pay for it. But, I eventually got the guts to tell her, and she told me I need to do what makes me happy, so I was VERY relieved! All my friends around me were very supportive just as well, and it really made me smile to know I had such support. But, that was before I told my other family members about it. Needless to say, they had to find out sometime, and that was around Christmas that they did. We were all having a nice dinner, and I so casually told them about it, because I had SUCH support previously, I thought I'd get the same support here [this is my step-family by the way]. Bad idea. Everyone, generally, began to gang up on me telling me how stupid I was to drop out of college for this, how they said they knew I could do it and I might as well get my AA. But see, THEY AREN'T ME! NO ONE IS BUT ME! SO I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO IS FULLY ABLE TO DETERMINE WHAT I CAN HANDLE AND WHAT I CAN'T! And I was just DONE with college, it isn't me, I can't keep handling the stress. But I was almost in tears. But I was basically just like "okay, well that's you, and yeah, I could go back, but I'm not going back, I'm doing this, because it's what I want and that is ALL that matters." I just STILL keep having people occasionally come to me though, telling me I shouldn't miss out on college. And I am SO SICK OF IT! I wish people could just support me in what I wanna do, seriously! This is what will make me happy. And people are just gonna have to deal, I'm already enrolled officially in beauty school, so I'm DOING THIS, as long as my mom, fiance, and friends support me, that's all that matters! But that was my rant, I think I'm done now. But just as a note to all of you, don't EVER let anyone sway your life decisions, you do what YOU WANT, okay? Because you're the only one who knows what you want!